He's left

27th of October, 2.43am on Wednesday..listening to Raymond Lam's Come2me concert..
Finally, Im willing to spare my time to update this blog.. My busy life really drives me crazy.. There is no one day that I could have nothing to do after I opened my eyes from my sleeping.. Handphone's alarm was set to wake me up for some purposes everyday.. Now even the alarm function is not really effective to me as I will stop the continuous ringing and continue to sleep.. =.= ..When I only can wake up freely without listening to the alarm?!! or sleep till whenever I want..

First of all, I really dunno what tittle i should put on my this post.. There is too many things I wanna write at here.. I dunno how to start it.. There is plenty of incidences had happened within this period.. Yesterday, my brother had "finally" went to UK to pursue his PhD. in University of Manchester within 5 years. I really dunno what course he was taking because we are less to talk to each other.. According to my mother's words, he was studying something like making bomb or something like explosion.. really speechless.. hardly to get what he was thinking..

Our relationship is not really closed although he is my brother because we always argue with each other since our stands and opinions are not in a same direction.. But I still feel regretful and sad about his leave.. Yesterday at the same time, I was facing to my Banking examination and the exam really disappointed me as well because I couldnt answer some questions.. It made me couldnt meet my brother at the airport.. it's really a piece of shit!!.. I was eager to meet him up as our last meeting was few weeks ago.. His left perhaps caused me to meet him up after 5 years.. 5-year is not a short period and i felt like I had lost something.. haizzz..

I still remembered that I had ever argued with him before about his future.. I remembered that at the end of the controversy I said that next time we see who can earn more money.. Now this statement really gave me much pressure.. haha.. but if I really didnt say it by that time, I was still pressured by my future as that was my greatest mission in my life.. Now he went to oversea already.. My heart to place myself at oversea was even more passionate.. First, I could avoid from people 'talking' about me.. Second, my mother will be proud of her sons and she could deserve a better life.. Third, that's what I always wish..

Now the house was getting lesser and lesser people.. The warmth and the noise was also lesser.. Next year my sister will also not be there probably because she has to enter into university.. So it just left 2 couples.. Three of us were separated far away.. haizzz.. I begin to miss those days we were together.. those days we argued together.. Actually we have a lot of special memories between us as well when now I flashback.. play card, play guli, play spiral, sneaking to play computer games(especially the street fighter and bomberman).. really very funny..

I know those days will not happen anymore.. I rather develop myself better and look forward in the future.. Everything has its beginning and ending.. I couldnt stop at there or go back to last time.. I believe our successful future would be more attractive and splendid.. waiting for the day!!